Wednesday, May 4, 2011
You may or may not have noticed... But I've been off for a few weeks.
I seem to do that every now and then... I get really busy to the point that I'm not even sure what year I'm in, then my busy-ness dies down and so does my enthusiasm for anything more than my daily duties. I suppose a little break here and there is fine, but my break is lasting a little too long for my liking. It began right around Easter...
We recently opened our home and boarded dogs for a few of Kevin's clients, 2 dogs for 4-5 days, then after those 2 left, 2 more were dropped off to us for 2 weeks (We still have the second set). Boarding dogs seems to really be a good avenue for Kevin to capitalize on while he begin's his business as a dog behavior expert because it gives him the opportunity to create and work with a balanced pack. He's gaining more and more dog knowledge by the minute and I'm learning that in order for me to continue helping with any pack of dogs I'm going to have to step up my game.
My wonderful man has been walking/exercising all dogs, (4 for now but had 6 last week) a minimum of 3 times a day, by himself. He had to take over morning walks because I'm just not quite ready to take on walking 4 dogs (2 balanced, 2 in the process of rehabilitation) by myself. He says I can do it, but until I believe in myself that I can, I won't. (There's my problem huh? Easy to spot out once it's laying there in front of me...)
I used my morning walks as my personal time with my God, a time to reflect on daily life and without them these last 2 weeks I feel like I'm living in a hole and I feel like I haven't helped Kevin with anything. (I have been on treadmill duty, which means I put each dog on the treadmill just before turning in for the night... Exercise for the dogs bodies - 1, exercise for Meg's body - 0) I've also been eating like crap lately, so that hasn't helped either. So how can I change these feelings? How can I get out of this hole?
Easy, climb out.
Put down the chocolate.
(Damn you Easter bunny for FILLING my house with candy!).
Start walking.
Stop eating shitty food.
Keep breathing.
Continue to believe in myself and in God. For He knows me best and He will guide me in the right direction.
So tomorrow I'll begin the day as if it is my first day of life...
Here's to a new start, a new direction, a new me.
My sweet lady K reminded me to 'keep my mind wide open' this morning with a beautiful rendition of her favorite song, "Keep You're Mind Wide Open":
"You've got to keep your mind wide open, all the possibilities... You've got to live with your eyes open, believe in what you see..."
Peace and love,
M
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