Friday, July 29, 2011
I'm sure I'm not the only one to describe myself as 'above average', but then that presents the question of what is 'average'?
I've seriously been contemplating this insanely complicated question for so long that I'm beginning to go nuts...
I'll be 24 this year and while the fact that I've gained another year makes me somewhat excited, I can't help but feel completely out of place in this small town in which I've spent my entire life.
I'm not the average 23 year old.
I didn't graduate college and I'll be honest, I have no plan to return.
I haven't lived with my parents or relied on them for financial help in 6 years.
I have a 3 year old daughter and I'm not married.
I don't regularly attend church, but I have a strong faith in God.
I start almost every day between the hours of 4 and 5 am.
I haven't lived with my parents or relied on them for financial help in 6 years.
I have a 3 year old daughter and I'm not married.
I don't regularly attend church, but I have a strong faith in God.
I start almost every day between the hours of 4 and 5 am.
I am not average.
Weird maybe and definitely a little quirky, but not average.
I recently attended a birthday party for a kid about the same age as Kami and while it was fun, I felt so out of place. Everyone was years older than me and I stood out like a sore thumb. Not that I mind standing out, but when you're attending a birthday party and you interact with more children than adults you begin to feel a little off.
Don't get me wrong, I did make conversation with a few adults at the party and enjoyed the conversations I had, but I didn't feel like I was speaking to friends.
Don't get me wrong, I did make conversation with a few adults at the party and enjoyed the conversations I had, but I didn't feel like I was speaking to friends.
I think that's what I'm having such an issue with lately... Friendships.
I don't have a lot of friends. I know, shocking right? (Just kidding...)
Most of the people who I consider friends don't live near me anymore. They have been pulled away from this little town and I find myself feeling alone more often than not.
I'm guessing I have these feelings because I spend most of my time with children or dogs. The most adult interaction I have is at yoga 2 mornings a week...
I'm guessing I have these feelings because I spend most of my time with children or dogs. The most adult interaction I have is at yoga 2 mornings a week...
I find myself longing for something new, for more opportunity, for a chance to find a friend...
Like I said, I'm not the average 23 year old.
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